Spectacle

Oh, spectacle -
that rush of sugar
felt throughout my bones!
The feeling of
new, and rejection
of that which was old!

That which now lies
before me - not
in body, but in
mind, and in dream -
is fantastic,
and must be known!

I with my tools -
so trusty til now -
am at a loss
to describe this

Just know that I
was entertained

Days We Didn't Reach

I dreamt last night

Of many things -

Incoherent messes

Of color, sound

And imagery

- but clearest of all

I dreamt of your face

You smiled at me

And asked my name

And reenacted

How we met

You yelled at me

A callous replay

Of our last days

You made your points

And I made mine

I dreamt of you

In terms unreal

Of days we didn’t reach

I dreamt of sun

And smiling faces

Yours, most clearly

I wanted to run

To grab your cheeks

And kiss you

To fall to ground

And apologize

For all of my shortcomings

To stand up and say

That I don’t need you

And walk away 

Trying to believe it

So many things

That I would do

But I all did

Was dream of you -

Your face, so clearly -

And days we didn’t reach

Glass Essence

My essence is glass

The casing is cracked

The lessons I’ve learned are ingrained

This man has learned

How quickly hours pass

Swept up like sand in the waves

My structure is known

And to it, I ‘scribe

I keep to the rules I'm told

But on the horizon

I see with these eyes

The chaos that threatens my soul

My hourglass, oh

It's long since been flipped

I’ve come to accept

That my clock runs fast;

With each falling grain

Fifteen more sneak past

The seconds don’t last

Too fast to complain

As structure slips by

Quickly, out of my hands

I watch as it crumbles

To nothing but echoes

A constitution

With no ruling class

And suddenly -

These walls I once knew

Aren’t so strong anymore

I fear that I’ve entered

A swan dive; where first,

I lept - comprised, strong,

My eyes tightly closed -

Til chaos came calling

And twisted my arms

It tapped on my shoulders

And opened my eyes

To show me the water;

It approaches fast

My poise slowly slips

And soon I am falling

I’m out of control

The air whistles past

Blood pumps in my ears

So I close my eyes

For as I have learned

That’s all I can do

The surface is hard

My glass walls shatter

My sand grains scatter

And soon they are swept

Mixed with water by waves

You Need

Close your eyes

And tell yourself

That monsters aren’t real

You tell yourself

Don’t listen;

It’s all in your brain

Your worries,

They hinder you

You need to break

You need to build

Do something

Anything

You do nothing

You’re paralyzed

The seconds pass

You’ve lost your chance

And as it goes

Threadlike toward the wind

You accept it

You crack a smile

And crack inside

Show the world you’re fine

And breathe

It’s hard to try

But do so, please

Your mind’s become

Your enemy

You need,

But don’t know what you need

You crack a smile;

So does your heart

And you begin to bleed

The Archer

Aim high, young archer

Unsheath your bow

Unto the heavens, defy

Your arrows plenty

And your crest displayed 

Walk steady, assured and comprised

Hold up your head

And see those you love;

They're calling your name in the crowd

No monster or foe

Is bigger than you 

The screams of the many grow loud

Your stance is well practiced

Your string is held taught

You fire; the arrowhead screams

See how the weapon

Has found its intent

Piercing the air without wings

Be strong, young archer

For your time has come

Shout your name proudly on high

By your heart's beat 

Raise boldly your bow 

And split the cerulean sky

Morning Mantra

When forenoon light

Seeps through your blinds

Do you wake up

Or choose to hide?

If you wish

You’ll close your eyes

And never know

The bluest skies

Shower fast

As coffee brews

Fill your mug

And read the news

Watch the blinds

The light beams through

There’s so much left

Today to do

For now you sip

And nod to tunes

While sun decides

Your waking mood

Don’t be scared

Of morning light

There’s more to see

Than there’s in night

So make love to

The rising sun

Soul's vivified

Your day’s begun

Little Blue Clouds

On days without clouds

Sunshine burns my skin

Invisible rays

Leave callouses thin

Without my blue clouds

In an orange can

I’m forced to seek shade

Stick my head in sand

With little blue clouds

My middle's secure

But on days without

My mind is more pure 

I never take time

To look at the sky

The fear of the hurt

Means beauty drifts by

But without the clouds

The sky is so blue

The highs are up there

Though lows are there too

I stick with my clouds

And accept the mean

For my present’s sake

To keep my mind clean

I work toward my strengths

For fortitude and

One day I’ll emerge

A much stronger man

When my job is done

And I find my ground

I’ll trade them for wings

And I’ll fly around

I’ll look past the clouds

To a bright blue sky

I’ll bear through the lows

To bask in the highs